the story of my life

what of eros ?
-- i mean.. eros is absent from self-love
-- isnt it
like all things, that is for you to decide
how can you love yourself if you do not love yourself ?
it is like the knife
it is not the knife that is positive or negative
a knife can be used to kill
but it can also be used to set someone free
--
-- oh
it is only the intention that is positive or negative
if the intention is to kill
that is negative
if it is to set someone free
that is positive
-- what do u do for earning living william!
i haven't yet decided
-- why so?
-- then where do u get ur money from
-- ur parents?
several paths lay before me like the ways that lead out of the forest
--
money finds me
I once was a rich man
-- ok
-- when?
now I am rich in contentment
--
I have no money
-- u seem to b enlightened
I have less than $5 to my name
-- but dont u think.. money helps
-- haha
-- hahaha
-- lo
-- lol
this is by choice
-- i also have 15$
there is no happiness to be found in anything in this world
-- like u can help tsunami sufferers
only suffering and pain
--
however, through mindful action and pure intentions, peace, love, kindness, compassion, joy and all the things we dream of having can be had
suffering and pain are only in our bodies
with hope the seeds of virtue grow into the flower of joy
rooted in virtue
--
-- where did u learn from ?
buddha
-- hey om brother.. who helped u to enlighten

buddha
-- why dont u meet me when u come to india
-- i will cure myself.
-- will try my best
there once was a man who searched for truth
across thousands of miles he searched, turning aside happiness and suffering all things in the search
-- yeah
one day he heard of a man who knew where the truth could be found
and he made his way to the man
he found him sitting in his room quietly
-- ya
and the man asked the wise man, "where can I find the truth ?"
the wise man said
"travel for one thousand miles and you shall find the truth you seek"
and the man set out immediately
and turned aside happiness
suffered greatly
only to be stopped by an ocean
where he could travel no farther
now without hope
-- can truth be found by meditating
the man travelled back to the wise man
in despair and without hope he arrived to find
the wise man had died
but in his place was a piece of paper with one word written
the man once reading the word
smiled in contentment
-- yep
and sat in the room
waiting for the next to arrive
what was the word ?
-- Death?
-- Knowledge?
-- smile?
truth
--
the moral of the story is this
truth cannot be found
it cannot be seen
-- haha
it cannot be felt
it only exists within you
along with hope